Its Okay To Have A Lazy Day

Yesterday morning, I woke up at 11:30am. For me, this is outrageous. I'm still signed off sick from my hand surgery and plan to return to work within a couple of weeks but each and every day, I have been up and about no later than 8am. Even the day after my surgery, I managed to transport myself along with my duvet downstairs and sat myself in front of a stack of Disney films all day.


At 11:30am yesterday morning, I shuffled downstairs, made a hot chocolate, complete with squirty cream and a little dish of Milky Bar Buttons and returned to bed. I sat snuggled up with my Miniature Schnauzer pinning inspiration to my hearts content. And yet I felt guilty. James came home for lunch at 12pm and I'd actually nodded off again at this point and he wasn't even bothered that I was still in bed. As a matter of fact, I've not been sleeping too great recently and right before bedtime, I'm having huge anxiety attacks and melting down. Maybe its to do with the fact I've been off work so long and I'm worried about going back, or maybe its the house buying saga starting again for us making me worry all the time. It wasn't until James said to me beneath the covers 'babe its okay to have a lazy day' that I realised it was okay.

I'm not usually one for days off, even when I have proper days off from my 'real job' I'm busy working on my illustration and Etsy shop. So when the time comes and I actually do nothing all day, I feel guilty as hell for it. I love to be busy all the time and apparently I get this from my Mum - she's another one who just can't seem to stop!


I guess what I'm getting at is I struggle to be more gentle with myself. I'm constantly striving for development especially when it comes to my Etsy shop and I need to remember to take care of myself too…even if it is with a chocolate overload for breakfast! I'm sure many bloggers and YouTubers can relate that finding downtime when you have a full time job, a blog and possibly a YouTube channel as well can be so difficult and even daunting which is why I'm determined to continue seeing my platforms as hobbies and not work.

I'm going to spend the next few days organising my blog and YouTube channel ready for my return to work and with a bit of luck this will pay off. I have posts scheduled already and I'm finding myself prerecording videos so I can continue to upload and post. We're also in the middle of buying a house again so thats another busy job to get done but I have dug out my neglected organiser and I'm adamant I'll be taking this everywhere with me from now on. But also, I'll focus on more self care and less criticism when I do decide to take it easy. We're only human after all.

Thankyou for reading!

Ellis x

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  1. I love this post! thanks for the reminder need it hahah. Do you want to support each others blog by following each other? Please let me know so I can follow you right back:)

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