Saying Goodbye

It is with a heavy heart that I admit to myself that my hair is in a very sorry state. Its not as bad as it could be, but I've been fighting a loosing battle for months, perhaps years.

I started bleaching my hair when I was about 19 and I tried to stick to only bleaching my hair every 3 months or so and being very careful to not go over the hair I had already bleached. I've tried a variety of different brands and despite my efforts, each time I have ended up with even dryer, unmanageable hair. I have spent so much money on products hoping they'll sort my hair out and not one has solved the problem because the issue is, my hair needs cutting off and the opportunity to grow again without being bleached.

I'm also terrible at keeping up with going to the hairdressers. Its rather expensive when you think about it plus, its not one of my favourite things to do. When I was about 16, I had a rather unfortunate incident with a hairdresser who managed to make me look like Bjorn from ABBA. I was horrified, cried myself to sleep  and from that day, vowed to grow my hair as long as I could get it. I haven't been for regular trims and my hairdresser tries to encourage me to see her often each time I go but I just don't.

Over the past few months I've noticed my hair has gotten worse and it matts up so easily. There is a particular area at the back of my head which knots up so badly that it looks like a dreadlock and the amount of times I've had to sit combing it out has left me with bald patches at the back of my head. I've tried sleeping with my hair up, hair plaited and I've tried those new plastic phone cable style hair bobbles. I'm sure a lot of girls will agree when I say that long hair is more trouble than its worth sometimes, especially living in the UK where its windy and rainy more often than not and it becomes a nuisance rather than looking nice and pretty.

The time has come for a change and as much as I adore having white blonde hair, I think it needs a break and a proper break at that, not the kind where it keeps snapping off my head and knotting just to piss me off. I'm booked in to see my hairdresser tomorrow and I'm going to have a serious think about how much to have off. I'd like to be able to wear my hair down again without getting frustrated and I'd like to be able to brush my hair and actually feel it run through without getting caught on a huge matt. A few friends have suggested using a tangle teaser but thats what I already use and a standard hairbrush makes it painful and such a chore. I use conditioner each time I wash my hair which is probably 3 times a week and make sure to leave it on for a good 5 minutes before washing it out. I also use argan oils, leave in masks and treatments but nothing seems to help so the only option left is to have a fair amount chopped off.

The great thing about hair, is it grows back! So its not the end of the world, just the end of a white blonde era but onwards and upwards to new hair adventures.

Thanks for reading!

Ellis x

1 comment

  1. I get terribily frustrated with my hair. I long for flowing locks but as soon as i have it shoulder length it drives me crazy getting in the way all the time! So mostly I do for the short bobbed look which I dont really like but am told "suits me"


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